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Blooming darkness drops fragrent petals

I've been having very minor feelings of panic. They are not panic attacks, it's more the realization that something really horrible just happened or is about to happen. Like you just emptied the trash and that paper you spent all day writing isn't on your desktop anymore... you deleted some other files but not that one.... oh god where is it.

I've been freaking out over work even though I've gotten nothing but positive reports. I have been driving Tom nuts worrying about any little freckle that is dark. Right now I am convinced he has a kidney stone or mrhavisham has made a voodoo doll of Tom. Probably the most unhealthy thing is my belief the work is going to end in 2012. I've watch too many documentaries playing up on the end of days predictions, not that I really put too much faith in them. It's more that the theory of how we got our moon and so much water was that the earth was hit by a comet during it's formation. That coupled with the extinction of the Dinosaurs and the Mayan Fifth World belief and a comet storm that happens every 200,000 years to restart the mess on earth sounds plausible to me.

I think in reality I'm just responding to all the deaths of last year, the recent earthquakes, landslides and end of the world shows I've been obsessing over. Like a true addict I need to just finish the new Life After People episodes and of course Apocalypse Man (so I will feel prepared) and then quit watching all these unhealthy end of the world programs.


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Jan. 16th, 2010 02:15 pm (UTC)
the most unhealthy thing is my belief the work is going to end in 2012.

Freudian slip? Don't worry, the world is not going to end in 2012. The Mayans didn't intend their calendar to be prophetic. Ask any Mayanologist - they'll tell you all this mania is ill-informed bunk.

Edited at 2010-01-16 02:15 pm (UTC)
Jan. 21st, 2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
I wish work would end and it almost I may get my wish, It's looking like I'm going to be getting less of it and it sounds like I'm going to be stuck as a contractor for a while longer. As far as 2012 I hope you are right. I just have a really bad feeling, I didn't feel like this for Y2K, and I found the whole thing funny. I did see 2012 and I haven't had a movie make me laugh that hard in a long time.
Jan. 16th, 2010 03:25 pm (UTC)
What will be, will be. Relax.
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