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Out demons- so dreams may come

Thank you everyone for your support and kindness. I'm sorry I have not responded to any comments you all have made this year.

If anyone has any techniques or methods they use to relax and go to sleep, Please share them with me. everyone on my mom's side of the family has terrible insomnia. both my mother and brother take pills to sleep. normally I use the flick of my wrist to sooth me to sleep. My mind races in the evening... working things out, evaluating the day, or planning the future. My brain won't relax enough to allow me to sleep. Counting sheep only leads to a tangent my mind will make with hannibal, clothing, wolves, and Babe the pig.

There is so much going on right now my mind is leaping from one thing to the next. Of course at the top of the list is Tom and how he is dealing with his Dad's death. Then I think about how we are moving (or are we?) into his old house and all the work that entails. Can I have a room that is cat free? My allergies have been killing me! Derek is coming in February. Kaiser is visiting too and i haven't had a chance to find out when. I need to hang out with Geoff- hell, I need to call him back! Sorry!!!

Then I think about my parents, they are fighting with the neighbors and that is another entry for later. my mom had two more skin cancers removed. she is worried about the scarring because the 20 stitches run from just under her eye to her mouth. Her surgeon is amazing and almost none of her scars show. she looks great. but i know she sees things the rest of us don't just like we all do. I told her to tell people she got into a fight with a trucker "cause he talked shit about her gardening." It got a laugh out of her.

There's a million things going on and I feel like things are slipping through the cracks... like the ZZZs I should be making right now.


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Jan. 23rd, 2006 10:09 am (UTC)
Jan. 23rd, 2006 12:52 pm (UTC)
I learned a technique years ago in a mind control class. Start counting backward from 100. On each count take a long deep breath. You will have to force yourelf to concentrate on the numbers -- you can do this by visualizing each number -- I used to rotate fonts to keep the mental image persistant. On each breath, imagine also that you are falling deeper and deeper towards sleep. Concentrate on the numbers and don't let yourself get distracted.

It will take some practice. Good luck.
Jan. 23rd, 2006 06:46 pm (UTC)
My grandfather used to use a variation on this that called for a little more focus. Like monkeyx3, I come from a long line of insomniacs whose main problems seem to stem from overactive minds late at night. The added focus helped narrow the mind into quiet.

In any case, the variation involved counting forward and backward simultaneously, along with the breath focus. I.E. 100, 1, 99, 2, 98, 3, 97, 4... I've used it a few times to varying degrees of success.

My doctor told me it was also important for your bed to be "Only a place of sleep..." No reading, no movies, etc.. He advised when I was having trouble to grab a book and head out of the room to read until I was tired enough to return to bed and try to sleep again. This is supposed to program the mind to start entering sleep as you're getting ready for bed...
Jan. 23rd, 2006 03:03 pm (UTC)
Sorry. I do the same as your mother and brother. Take pills. Even then I wake up a minimum of 5 times.

I do find the evenings I run or bike. I sleep better. Just a thought.


Jan. 23rd, 2006 04:18 pm (UTC)
Get thee to a sleep lab (assuming you have insurance)
Seriously. I used to have trouble falling asleep and also would wake up 5-10 times a night. Then I had a sleep study done and was diagnosed with apnea. Now I am treating it I sleep like a log (sometimes don't even change position all night!).

Not trying to diagnose anything, just pointing out that a lot more people have apnea than realize it.

Anyway, sorry for all the grief lately. Platitudes are useless, so just do what you have to do anyway ... wait.
Jan. 23rd, 2006 07:33 pm (UTC)
oh eric
hello my little sugarlump. kirsten emailed me today and told me about tom's dad. i'm so sorry to hear of his loss. i feel for him, and you, and the family. you know i understand. if you need to talk, please call. hold tom's hand, give him a hugh, and just be there. it may be a week, a month, a year, later and he'll need you. or it might be today. it takes time, and the hurt never goes away. so just be there. you're so good at that, i'm sure you're everything he needs and more. i love you both and am thinking of you.

Jan. 23rd, 2006 07:35 pm (UTC)
my mom has had insomnia for 14 years. ever since my dad died. i'll ask her for some tips. i know that she reads, soothing things, not a novel or anything like that. tries to meditate and i'm not sure what else. i'll ask.

Jan. 23rd, 2006 11:56 pm (UTC)
I have found that the only thing that really works for me because my mind goes on the racing tagent from time to time also. I used to be soooo much worse that it is now.

But I chant "Sleep" in my mind like a mantra. The chant blocks out all of the other stuff that is trying to get in and works as a suggestion to the mind so you tend to fall asleep.

Hope this helps.
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