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I spent Sunday in two parts with people who’ve taken the LJ chill pill. I started to have a discussion with my morning appointment about how what he wanted to write wasn’t like what he read in other journals. He felt people wouldn’t get what he wanted to put out there. I told him how so many people on my friends list are focused on completely different aspects of their lives, some are very political, some are spiritual, others are documentations of the day to day life while others are collections of funny stuff found surfing. I explained that I was addicted to my very first blog and was so obsessed with it my coworkers and friends teased me and thought I was insane. I read every entry.... Well up until I was so publicized that it became chat room. What was this blog that contents that got me so worked up. The guy wrote nothing, he scanned in his receipts from Wal-Mart and posted them. You could see what he bought and get a glimpse into who he was. I learned he had two daughters, only one when he started. He kills plants, loved to buy cards and may be singlehandedly responsible for keeping the Fargo Wal-Mart open. What made his blog so great was the comments people left, the items mysterious titles could easily be misconstrued. don’t believe me, check it out Derek's Big Archive of Wal-Mart Purchase Receipts but don’t say I didn’t warn you, it’s addictive.

For me my blog is like a confessional. Not that I feel I need redemption, but sometimes its good for me to unburden my heart by putting the things in my heart and mind on paper so they can deal with whatever new item comes along. I think I am ok with conversations, but my mind is slow I have to process things. Sometimes I want to say something but I get interrupted or the conversation changes to something else. But in my blog I can get out what I want to say, at least as much as my scattered mind will allow.

I fear when I die, I will be forgotten, I worry that my life didn't really improve the world. I hate the movie “It’s a wonderful life.” My feelings for this movie are so strong it’s best to leave the subject alone. I have this fantasy that my blog will last forever. I have a “Permanent Account” and hope it will last beyond my life. People could read what I’ve written and get to know me. Someone may read about an aspect of my life and be able to apply something to their own lives.

Is now a good time for me to admit I have never read the diary of Ann Frank?

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mattieuperrin
Aug. 9th, 2005 01:16 am (UTC)
I would have explained it better the way you put it. That would be how I would describe the people in my friends list. I have found something or somethings interesting in them, that I would like to keep up with the going-on's of their lives.

These two quotes from you was memorable:
I told him how so many people on my friends list are focused on completely different aspects of their lives, some are very political, some are spiritual, others are documentations of the day to day life while others are collections of funny stuff found surfing.

I fear when I die, I will be forgotten, I worry that my life didn't really improve the world.
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Since you also live in the Bay Area, I love reading what is going on in your life. It is like we both live in the general area but in totally different life dimension (as in, in an alternate universe).
ewe_2
Aug. 9th, 2005 02:29 pm (UTC)
With my friends list there is no rhyme or reason as to why I chose them. Each one for a different reason. Some I liked their LJ name. Others were the entries. Some for one reason which then evolved into another.

You had three reasons. Yours entries were always open and honest. Some of which I have felt the same way but I could never have written those feeling as clearly as you.

And I have to say your name and pics attracted me too. The pics are so cool and you certainly are able to show your personality and thoughts through them.

D
monkeyx3
Aug. 9th, 2005 05:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you!!!It's funny that my name attracted you, I am not happy with it but I have had it for so long. I guess I suffered from a bit of windows thinking, I guess when I came up with that name back in 1997 I thought I would be a boy forever. I considered myself a boy rather than a man at that time. Now I'm a bit embarrassed by the boy, as if I am trying to appear younger than I am. I have been thinking about changing the name I use... especially since I have discovered through google that I'm a victim of online identity theft. Someday I'm going to run into this other macboysf and say... there can only be one! heh heh.
ewe_2
Aug. 9th, 2005 08:29 pm (UTC)
LOL.

It was the Monkey name! ha ha! I thought it was so cool.

:-)

D
cheerfulchaotic
Aug. 11th, 2005 05:44 am (UTC)
I often wonder how I seem online to those who've never met me in real life, such as yourself.

I wonder if my journal seems to be about what I claim it's about (personal growth, and other stuff for fun). I wonder if it manages to accomplish the personal growth goal.

I hope I get the chance to meet you when I'm out in SF in a couple weeks.
(Anonymous)
Aug. 13th, 2005 06:05 pm (UTC)
thanks for sharing...
Becasue we LOVE MONKEY!!!
fixxwisdom
Aug. 16th, 2005 03:08 am (UTC)
Hey, I know we talked about hanging out and you said Sunday is a good day for you. As it is, I am off this coming Sunday the 21st if you have any free time. Lemme know pally.
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