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I finally told Jannie everything.

I used to live on a web of secrets. They bound me in a dark hole. Some of the secrets I kept for myself, some I kept for others. The ones I kept for others were more toxic and would eat away at me. When it felt like they would eat through my skin. I told the secrets I kept for him to another, Wendi pulled it out of me. It was painful and frustrating, but It was such a relief to have it out, but I felt guilty about breaking my word. Eventually I broke down and told others, other people and other secrets. I posted them on the internet. They were my secrets as well and I had kept them long enough. The secrets that used to rule my thoughts and held my heart hostage have no more power.

I don’t feel guilty that I posted his secret on the internet. It wasn’t just his secret in the first place.

Do you have a secret?

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(Anonymous)
Apr. 27th, 2005 08:59 pm (UTC)
I hope you are doing okay and feeling okay about what we talked about. And I hope you know how much I love you and could never be mad at you. Things that happen to you are supposed to make you who you are today-so I can't say completely that I feel like all my time was wasted, but I do feel like there was so much I didn't know. This will sound made up but its the truth- for everything that has happened-if what came out of it was knowing you and having your friendship and being exposed to so many other good people, then I guess it was worth it.

Call me!
J lady