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I finally told Jannie everything.

I used to live on a web of secrets. They bound me in a dark hole. Some of the secrets I kept for myself, some I kept for others. The ones I kept for others were more toxic and would eat away at me. When it felt like they would eat through my skin. I told the secrets I kept for him to another, Wendi pulled it out of me. It was painful and frustrating, but It was such a relief to have it out, but I felt guilty about breaking my word. Eventually I broke down and told others, other people and other secrets. I posted them on the internet. They were my secrets as well and I had kept them long enough. The secrets that used to rule my thoughts and held my heart hostage have no more power.

I don’t feel guilty that I posted his secret on the internet. It wasn’t just his secret in the first place.

Do you have a secret?

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Apr. 27th, 2005 05:33 pm (UTC)
Was it the water fountain?

Apr. 27th, 2005 05:46 pm (UTC)
No, I don't get thirsty when I fell shame.
None of those were my secret. I told my secret to the last person I needed to tell. You've read my secret already I posted it a long time ago.

You do have a right to be upset that after 21 years he could say something like that to you. it's fine if he wants to get tested but to say he doesn't trust you is rude.
Apr. 27th, 2005 06:09 pm (UTC)
Re: No, I don't get thirsty when I fell shame.
Thanks. I'm a bit put off by his comment.

I had a whole thing written but decided not to post it.

Listening to the song Mindcircus which is how I feel

O my. You've written so many stories. Would it be about your friend and first encounter? I won't guess anymore.