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I’ve been absent lately from LJ and life, whenever I get sick it zaps me of all my creative energy. No energy left for writing, photographing, or creating in any way, it even affects my desire to read. I hate being sick. Then once I’m back on my feet again it takes a while for me to build that energy up again. I was having problems even thinking of something to write about. I’ve fallen behind in my own life. So many things to catch up on, no time to think about what is worthy of my time. But last night I remembered something and became inspired.


I remembered Cypher. He was my favorite character in the New Mutants (the Junior X-Men) Comic books. I loved the new mutants more than any other comic book because they were kids who were different. Kids who were different and just wanted to be normal. This was how I felt. Cypher was my favorite because he was weak just like me. He couldn’t fly, change into a wolf, or harvest the power of the Sun. He was just a weak skinny kid who could figure out languages easily.

When I was in high school I was studying two languages at the same time. It wasn’t until years latter that I realized how much I really identified with Cypher. Growing up I would fluctuate between trying desperately to be as different as possible to trying to be normal. Clearly being normal grew tiresome.

Once when camping at the Colorado River I wandered to an unoccupied site climbed atop a picnic table faced north and sat in a lotus position. I sat there for at least an hour meditating, try to astral project, or do something to tap my inner powers. I didn’t realize my inner power was the ability to kiss boys. I sufficiently freaked out my brother that night, something that still puts a smile on my face.

Cypher was killed somewhere around issue 60 but I had hopes he would return stronger and better than ever, being infected with the Tranmode virus. Issue 100 would be the one would upset more than any other. It would be the last issue. They would kill off or permanently change most of the characters to make way for the new team called X-Force. But the thing that upset me most was a little side story what involved the ghost of Cypher, which truly finalized his death, he was gone. He wasn’t going to come back. I was so upset I pretty much stopped collecting comic books.

I still have all 100 of the original New Mutant comic books and on rainy days I take them out and bring them back to life once again.

Lilac Wine/Remix - Nina Simone - Verve Remixed Volume 3


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Mar. 2nd, 2005 01:49 am (UTC)
I also collected New Mutants, although I only followed for maybe the first 60 issues or so. Alas, I no longer have them. : (
Mar. 2nd, 2005 06:43 am (UTC)
All this got me to bring out my box of New Mutants comics.
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:00 am (UTC)
Last I checked, he and Warlock were alive again, merged into one entity.

This is what you get for having comics geeks on your flist.

Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:04 am (UTC)
Comic geeks are the best kind. (if I say so myself).

They did this character called Douglock in "Excalibur", but he had none of the qualities that made Doug Ramsey special to a young man growing up and trying to work out why he didn't fit into the mould that the world was offering.

In my opinion.
Mar. 2nd, 2005 07:12 am (UTC)
When I was searching for the cover I came across that info sort of... I guess they brought him back in a few different ways...
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:01 am (UTC)
I loved "The New Mutants" too; I read it at just the right age to really connect with it, and so it remained a favourite comic for ages afterwards. I started with issue 41, where Mirage goes home to visit her parents, and ends up fighting Death for the spirit of a guy who has come to hate Native Americans, and then collected back and forwards until I had 98 of the 100 issues.

Cypher was a wonderful character, and I always felt it was a flaw on the part of the otherwise wonderful Ms. Louise Simonson that she decided he would be the one to die in that summer's big cross-over. It felt like she wanted to get rid of a character she found it difficult to write for. Cypher was great because he was almost like us, almost a regular mortal among demi-gods, yet he could pull his weight with the team. Chris Claremont had built up his importance to the team, and then when he left, Doug Ramsey had this taken away from him.

I felt the title went downhill after that, and when Rob Leifeld came on board, only loyalty kept me on board. The final three issues were a painful read.

Thanks for the reminder of this great title! Did you happen to pick up the new title when they brought it out recently? I bought the first six issues, and it had an interesting charm to it like the original title. I couldn't really get into it, because it was a little like watching a new edition of a favourite childhood show - the power of nostalgia wasn't enough to overcome the new slant.

"The New Mutants" and "The X-Men" were important to me; I connected with them because I was brought up differently and growing up different, and they were a wonderful escape from that.

I'm so looking forward to meeting you, and getting to talk more!
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:47 am (UTC)
i also was very upset when marvel killed off one of their only interesting characters. i was the nerdy type in grades school too (even though i was popular) and he always made the new mutants more real to me to have this goober without a super high power mutant ability tag along for missions. one of my favorite new mutants issues was annual #2 (which also just happened to be the first US comic with psylocke in it too). do you remember that one?

you probably don't remember her, but i've always wondered what happened to that doctor they gave the silly personal forcefield to. it protected her yes, but she could still feel all the force and pain. i thought that was pretty cool...
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:14 pm (UTC)
I think Grant Morrison didn't want to use her, so they quietly dropped her from the book. She may be back - Chris Claremont seemed to like the character.
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:50 pm (UTC)
Last I know she was kidnapped and sent to the "mutant internment camp" that was featured in the Weapon X series. I didn't follow that book but it seems that by the time it was cancelled she was still alive in there. I believe there's an upcoming Weapon X mini where that issue may be resolved.
Mar. 4th, 2005 10:26 pm (UTC)
I remember that one... Wildways if I remember, but I don't remember the forcefield.
Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:59 am (UTC)
I love the New Mutants.
Mar. 2nd, 2005 04:05 am (UTC)
They brought him back as an amalgamation of Warlock and Doug Ramsey called Douglock.

The New Mutants comics was relaunched this year under the premise that the original New Mutants came back to teach at Xaviers, training the next generation of X-Men. the concept was ok, but the art and writing were horrific and it was canceled (more or less). Granted the Rob Liefeld shit storm that was X-Force was horrible, but much later on, when John Francis Moore got his hands on the book and took it in a new direction it was fantastic. He had the kids ditch the uniforms and whole "superhero" stigma and set them out in a cross country road trip in a beat up old Eldorado Cadillac, stripped of secret bases and endless cash resources from Xaivers, exploring them as not the next generation of X-Men, but 20-somethings who happen to have phenomenal powers. Along the way the fall into certain situations that have them saving the day while trying to get gas money to make it to San Francisco. PLus, had Moore had the book for longer than he did, he had laid the groundwork for Shatterstar and Rictor to come out of the closet and admit they were attracted to each other. Eventually writing them into a relationship. In some of the older issues you can see him doing this in the dialog. Ah, the memories, that was one of my favorite times to read comics...

Mar. 2nd, 2005 02:56 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure I would call the New Mutants relaunch horrid, much less unpopular... it seems to be quite the fan favorite and they will always get points from me for actually wanting to use the handful of gay mutants in the Marvel Universe (not that they got away with it, but they tried).

BTW your journal is one of the best looking I've seen ^^
Mar. 2nd, 2005 04:16 am (UTC)
haha... ahh, comic book memories...

actually, i used to only read G.I.Joe and Transformers. ha!

Mar. 2nd, 2005 09:20 pm (UTC)
Sigh. Louise Simonson didn't just kill off Cypher - she killed the book. Rob Leifeld finished it off with a Mortal Kombat-like killing blow.


Since we're reminiscing about New Mutants, my favorite was issue #45 - about a teenage mutant who commits suicide. That issue rocked me when I read it - the idea of a mutant kid telling "how many mutants does it take to screw in a lightbulb" jokes to try and fit in was so... real. Stories like it made me forget that I was just reading a comic book.

Damn. Now I gotta go read some comic books tonight... -Eugene
Mar. 3rd, 2005 01:07 pm (UTC)
That one was a hidden gem all right. Barry Windsor-Smith cover and a really well thought through story that spoke volumes about how we can loathe ourselves.
Mar. 4th, 2005 10:24 pm (UTC)
That one stands out as one of the best in my mind too! It really does parallel what gay youth go through, how they can fear themselves and do and say things to fit in that just reinforce the system. How people can say things to them that truly hurt and not even realize the damage that has been done. Just a few more days!
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