I hate being alone for long periods of time. Loneliness and sadness creep in and drag my heart down to the floor. I want to cry for no reason. I need the sounds of people around me. Why do I get so sad? It's not like I will be alone forever or my life sucks in any way. I have a charmed life. But when I'm alone it's as if the Dementors come around, suck the happiness away and no amount of chocolate can help me. Happy songs become sad anthems. I try to do things so I can at least have the feeling of accomplishment. After a few hours my face droops with all the hope sucked out of me. I don't know how bender772 has been able to do it for all these months. I am truly a social creature. No wonder it was so easy for Randy to break me.