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Why do I feel bad?

I am finally taking care of things I've been putting off. I have started the process to get a new passport. I got my photos taken, now I just need to fill out the form, find my old passport and send it all in. But I've only been putting that off for 8 months. The other thing I am taking care of, I have been putting off for five years! I'm dissolving my Domestic Partnership with Randy. I thought it would be much harder than it is. All I need to do is fill out a form, send a copy to Randy and the SF county clerk. I'm not sure about Randy's address, but I know his work address... I should probably call him and let him know before I send it. I'm glad I'm taking care of this now, it seems that in a few more months it's going to be a lot harder to and will involve a fee. I've put this off for 5 years. Tom has constantly hounded me on this... and I understand why. Sometimes I just don't want to deal with things even though I know they won't go away. Time to make some stuff go away.

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Jul. 15th, 2004 05:41 pm (UTC)
good riddance to old rubbish, as they say?
Jul. 15th, 2004 06:18 pm (UTC)
I’m just so proud of you for being so strong! I can truly identify with you on how hard this tribulation has been and finally you can put an end to this endeavor although I know there will always be an abrasion on your heart where Randy is concerned except only now there isn’t any influence to keep you in the past, it’s all behind you now or is it?

It’s not in my character not to ask you this question; are you doing this for you or Tom? I’m sure both of you would like this part of your life to be all in the past however from the hesitation in your entry I’m picking up that your not a hundred percent sure of letting go of Randy’s memorys. I can understand why that you wouldn’t be, I guess what I am trying to ask you, are you unquestionably sure you’re truly over your companionship with Randy?
Jul. 16th, 2004 12:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you. It really is all in the past. The one thing about me that does really follow the astrological description of a Taurus is I rarely go back, I'm bull headed and once I decide something, I do move on. My time with Randy did damage me, and I have no desire to go back.

I've been meaning to end the partnership for years. For a long time I didn't because I was so angry with him and didn't want to talk with him at all. Then I put it off because I had spoke with someone who told me I would need a lawyer, and that sounded as appealing as smashing my hand in a car door. Finally when my aunt told me I better take care of it quick while it is still easy I decided it was time to do it.

Tom didn't even know until last night when I told him I needed to call Randy to warn him of the incoming letter. I spent an hour and a half on the phone with Randy last night, I am one hundred percent I am over him. I wish him well, and will always care about him... but he drives me nuts.
Jul. 20th, 2004 04:21 pm (UTC)
Well I’m so pleased to hear your convictions. Your certainty provides me with hope my friend.
Jul. 15th, 2004 07:37 pm (UTC)
very brave things to accomplish
I'm dissolving my Domestic Partnership with Randy. I thought it would be much harder than it is. All I need to do is fill out a form, send a copy to Randy and the SF county clerk.

that's true courage — I would be such a wreck emotionally. I know the paperwork isn't the issue.

awesome stuff to hear!
Jul. 15th, 2004 09:00 pm (UTC)
Friend of punkbassoon up there. Been reading your journal... fascinating stuff. I'm addin' you... add me back if you like.

Jul. 16th, 2004 10:26 am (UTC)
I think it's important to note that you are taking care of things, and to give yourself credit for that. There are always going to be things that need your attention, so don't beat yourself up for not doing it all right now.

Dissolving the domestic partnership with Randy is a huge step! You get major kudos for moving on. And you'll get the passport taken care of.

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