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Hey Faggot!!!

challenge number one: drunken post...will this make sense the next day... I'm already happy I used sense rather than scents.
Challenge number two: HTML, can I do it!

I just got home from Hey Faggot! I drooled with grubbybastard over the bartender in the back as well as the too sexy too talented DJ Earworm. When I wandered in at 9pm the place was empty. I made few calls to see if anyone was going to be there and Joe and his boy Anthony were supposed to be there at 9... they weren't but grubbybastard showed up to my surprise shortly after I arrived. We hung out with his friend Diego. Eventually Joe and Anthony arrived. It's odd to think that today was their 6 month anniversary and I had been the one to introduced them at Hey Faggot six months ago.

Slowly our group started to grow, ryan showed up and so did Lego Jayson, but I lost everyone when I saw a friend I hadn't seen in ages. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw Rod walk past me. Rod is a great man, I love him and his boyfriend. We always talk about hanging out and really getting to know each other but it never happens. Tonight, he was on his own and so was I. I gave Tom some alone time to work on things and release any pent up emotions that he might have about all the horrible things going on in his family life he doesn't want me to see. Rod and I finally were able to talk a great lengths about things that we couldn't talk about around our mutual friends. We made confessions and when we parted I think we both came away with a sense (not scents) that we had someone to talk to about the complications of the relationships we have with our boyfriends.

I have not felt that i could express anything about this in my journal for two reasons. first, Tom doesn't want his business aired on the internet and second, anytime I have made any comment remotely hinting at frustration I have received too many comments that I should break up with him. That isn't reality. Relationships take work and have their ups and downs it doesn't mean they are broken or should be ended.

1:30 time for bed....

Comments

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ewe_2
Oct. 6th, 2005 01:11 pm (UTC)
"Relationships take work and have their ups and downs it doesn't mean they are broken or should be ended"

Well said.

Everyone needs someone to confide in.

:-)

D
grubbybastard
Oct. 6th, 2005 04:25 pm (UTC)
Yes, I also lost everyone when that guy wandered by and carried me off. I went to say good-bye to folks and everyone seemed to have disappeared....! Heh....

_kaiser_
Oct. 6th, 2005 04:33 pm (UTC)
the only reason i'd ever tell you to break up with tom would be totally selfish and i'd never do that... *wink*

seriously though, it's too bad that you don't feel comfortable talking about something that is such a major part of your life. you know that i find it far too easy to break up with people and that we have completely different dating patterns but hopefully i would never advise you to do something you weren't comfortable with or make a comment that would prohibit you from talking freely in your own journal. i know that some of my friends go crazy with making special filters for discussing special topics and maybe you'd like to do that (if you haven't already). personally i'm pretty much an open book but that doesn't mean everyone else is...
ballistik
Oct. 6th, 2005 08:46 pm (UTC)
I've never known a drunk guy know how to insert hyperlinks n stuff in their LJ entries. LOL!

*B
et_blackbird
Oct. 8th, 2005 06:53 am (UTC)
I've never done a post drunk or stoned, and I don't think I'll try. Yours is articulate though!

You've mentioned before that when you try to share the difficult aspects of your life with Tom here, some people become very negative and suggest that you two break up, and I think it's such a shame. You and Tom have a complex, integrated and very real relationship. Every real relationship requires work and a lot of time, and in my experience, having somewhere to vent, or sound out ideas, is a really important thing. Having someone to talk to can mean having someone who will show you that you're over-reacting, or missing something important; it's wonderful that you've found someone like that there in SF.

You and Tom have a dynamic that is yours, and your way of doing things, and people should respect that and realize that if you vent, it's because you need to regain your equilibrium within that dynamic, and not because you need support to break up.

Give Tom a hug from me: I really feel for him with all that he's going through. I hope the evening's space and time helped him get through at least some of those issues.

Realtionships require a great deal of work, but a good realtionship is worth that work. They always have ups and downs: I don't know a relationship that doesn't. However, with work, if there's love and trust, anything can happen.
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