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The ebb and flow of emotional riptides.

Sometimes I am overwhelmed, I feel like a hurricane is raging inside my soul reaping havoc and uprooting emotions and overturning long standing beliefs. I am the kind of person who is a bit disconnected. I sit back and think about things before I react. I weigh things out and decide how I want to feel about something emotionally. When these Hurricanes happen I feel very out of my element. These strong emotions coming and going, bursting in making there presence known and leaving just to be replaced by the next giant wave. The fear comes but quickly subsides only to be replaced by anger or sadness. Ambivalence is sure to show up as well as a little joy.

Maybe it’s the Sinus infection, maybe it’s the medicine. It’s quite the rollercoaster. It’s not really bad, good or scary, it’s just very different.

Yesterday someone told me they enjoyed conversations with me. By the amount of happiness this brought me, you would have thought they had handed me a report card for my life with A++ written next to each item.

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grubbybastard
Jul. 8th, 2005 10:11 pm (UTC)
I need to pin you down at some point to thank you in person for a number of wonderful things you've done on my behalf of late. The CDs have brought incredible joy to me this week at work, for example.

Did you get my email?
fredo_joaquin
Jul. 8th, 2005 10:19 pm (UTC)
The idea of getting a report card for my life had never ocurred to me.

Now I have a whole other thing to obsess about.

Thanks. Loveyameanit.
_kaiser_
Jul. 9th, 2005 12:04 am (UTC)
recently i've been feeling a lot of ups and downs too. fun ain't it?
did you ever get my email with my mailing address?
romeohotel
Jul. 10th, 2005 01:33 am (UTC)
Yesterday someone told me they enjoyed conversations with me. By the amount of happiness this brought me, you would have thought they had handed me a report card for my life with A++ written next to each item.

I haven't had the privledge of having an actual conversation with you. I would very much like to, cause yu're the gay guy I want to grow up to be similar to :-)
monkeyx3
Jul. 15th, 2005 12:10 am (UTC)
I don't think I have ever gotten such an amazing compliment. Thank you!
romeohotel
Jul. 15th, 2005 01:07 am (UTC)
Awwwwwwwwww.

It's true, it's true!
ewe_2
Jul. 11th, 2005 03:14 pm (UTC)
By what you write I would think most people would enjoy having a conversation with you.

:-)

D
cheerfulchaotic
Jul. 14th, 2005 03:43 am (UTC)
Well you do seem like you'd be fun to talk with. Hard to tell, I'll have to try it next time I'm in SF. =)
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