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Warning!
Personality disclaimer.

I am not an emotional person, I don't cry or have fits very often. I just don't seem to pay attention to some emotions. Thusly I am not the best person to notice and give emotional support. Emotional support is not something I'm very good at, I'm a problem solver not at supporter. If you don't directly say to me, I need help, I'm likely to not notice. The way my mind and emotions work, I tend to think of people being like me, if I need something I ask. I talk about whatever is bothering me, I don't wait for someone to ask, "Are you ok?"

I know this is a shortcoming and that I should be less "self absorbed" (as I was called this morning). I don't deny this, I'm a giving person but if you don't make your needs known to me, you must understand I am not good at seeing the subtle clues. I don't spend my time analyzing each word anyone says to me like I am trying to anticipate the twist of a M Knight Shaymalan movie.

I take responsibility for myself, I rely on myself, I take care of myself first. Does this make me a bad person? Does this make me self absorbed?

Hell I might as well give a list of all my bad qualities. I don't want anyone to have too high of expectations of me. I know I am not perfect, far, far from it. I think I am OK, I could be better, but I'm good enough for now.
Bad qualities you can expect from me:
I am Lazy, but who isn't.
I procrastinate, but who doesn't.
I am slightly obsessive. JT's blocks nearly destroyed me.
I like to finish things, It has to be a really bad movie in order for me to walk out before it ends.
I am picky, I know what I like and also what I don't, very few things fall halfway.
I want people to like me.
I can't concentrate when too much is going on.
I have trouble hearing.

It's never a good idea to leave something one sided and is always good to end on a positive point, so her are some good qualities.
I compromise
I am willing to get two shots a week so Tom doesn't have to give up the kitties.
I don't complain about these sort of things.
I am a problem solver.
I am willing to give my problem solving and money to friends who need it.
I am a peacekeeper.
I try to listen for people's intentions, not their words.
It's hard to make me angry.
It's hard to make me cry.
It's easy to make me hard.
I have a weird sense of humor.

I think I am a good friend to have, you just can't expect everything from me. No matter how hard I try, I will never be perfect. I also will never be able to make you or anyone happy, happiness only comes from yourself.

Comments

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redarius
Aug. 21st, 2004 02:04 pm (UTC)
Now that ..
is what I call a journal entry. It also reads like a list of things that I'd say about myself. I really needed to read this today, and it's the first LJ entry on my friendlist this afternoon, and this is the first time in days that I've sat down to read my friendlist. Thanks for knowing yourself, who you are, and who you are not well enough to post this.
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 11:11 pm (UTC)
Re: Now that ..
Thank you!
Should I also mention I'm slow?
setch
Aug. 21st, 2004 03:33 pm (UTC)
Well, you're able to admit to your faults, which probably puts you a few steps ahead of whomever called you "self-absorbed." Everybody is self-absorbed to a degree, and if they're not, then they must be really boring.

Well, it looks like we're not talking about me anymore, so I'd better get going. (cue rimshot.)
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 11:29 pm (UTC)
Ha Ha! Thanks! I love your Kitty Helmet icon so much!
craigb
Aug. 21st, 2004 06:08 pm (UTC)
I was like someone describing.........me. Only I tend to be told I'm aloof and frigid. (Except to Jim)
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 10:45 pm (UTC)
Well I get cold hearted. if anyone dared to call me frigid, I would probably hump their leg.
ballistik
Aug. 21st, 2004 08:56 pm (UTC)
God, I am right there with ya all the way. LOL.

You are so right about happiness.

Also, a very true motto I've taken on this month:

YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE

-B-
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 10:50 pm (UTC)
Who knew a New Radicals song would be our motto of the month...
_kaiser_
Aug. 22nd, 2004 09:49 am (UTC)
it is true that the list is general enough that it could also describe me, but it definitely is specific enough that it could only describe you. sometimes i wish we didn't live so far apart and that we could actually hang out in person. i only know you from your journal and from your pictures, but from that i've decided you're a keeper. and just so you know, i'm really picky (and attachment phobic, but we won't get into that here). it means a lot that you've not only somehow passed through the radar, but the uber-defenses as well...
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 11:55 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think we would get along really well, At minimum I would have someone to go to shows with. I like to think that Peaches was my copilot. She is good at getting through the Radar and übber-defenses. If you are ever in SF or I'm even near Vancouver, I want to hang out. We could be picky together!
roosterbear
Aug. 22nd, 2004 05:20 pm (UTC)
I take responsibility for myself, I rely on myself, I take care of myself first. Does this make me a bad person? Does this make me self absorbed?

Not at all. Just because you place yourself at the top of the list doesn't mean that you are the whole list. And you can't really take care of, or care about, anyone else without your own needs met. You can't expect anyone else to take care of you if you won't take care of yourself.

Selfish isn't necessarily a bad thing, or the same thing as self-absorbed (to the exclusion of everything and everyone else).

*hug* For the record, I think you rock.
monkeyx3
Aug. 22nd, 2004 11:42 pm (UTC)
Thank You!
Hug right back!
You Rock Too!
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